As you find yourself
Chasing after your dreams
Bringing life to your desires
There’s a meanwhile
That encircles you
Our Creator, Our God
He knows best
He wants for us
What will exceed
Our highest expectations
Dear one,
Fret not,
Over what’s on the other side of the fence
But in the meantime
Floating in the meanwhile
Be content, and also ready yourself
For a forever blessing
A day at a time
A tear that will dry
There is a reason,
There is a season
But still there is despair
A hug to say all is fine
A word of encouragement
To calm a racing mind
But there will still be that moment
Hands in pockets, and emptiness felt
Such is a revisiting sorrow
That comes in waves
Such is a daunting anxiety
That comes uninvited
Such is the guilt felt
For shifting the mood
So I ask that you bear with me
You jolly soul, best friend, confidant
One day it may be well
One day the pockets may be filled
With something other than emptiness
Something worth remembering,
Something that will carve a smile
Dawn sweep away the perils
That chided me in sleep
Praying and crying out, though nasal
My Saviour, He hears me weep
Turned on side, pillowing my fears
The stillness, so loud, envelops
Reminded of a hymn to repress the tears
Gathering courage, to never give up hope
The day is bursting through
And the remnants of night, they fade
Flee away you woe, perhaps one or two
For today we choose joy, and will not trade
In a world of chaos
Some are choosing their blues
The big ones, the little ones
And they ponder in recluse
So be wary and considerate
That you know not their fate
For some have slept
Only to wake and walk
Walking, but not existing
For some have dreamt
A thousand dreams, yet still sulk
Moping in misery
And for some, they are hoping
For a glimpse of a miracle
Hands clasped tightly
As they mumble prayers of petition
And as for the writer,
She cries out for reassurance
Tonight, feeling weighted more
By the littlest of blues
Tower of refuge
They say You are
But to get to You,
Is going to take some effort
Lord be my helper
As I find my way to You
Tower of restoration
I’ve heard You are
But I’m deceived,
By the people so few
Lord quench the lying voices
That stay manipulating my thoughts
Tower of Purpose
Stay right where You are
Because I’m not losing You this time
Be it bend or bump on the way
I’m coming to You Lord
Sometime between sunset and sunrise
Someday, worried one
You’ll find the light
Someday, wretched one
You’ll be on the other side
Through the swampy marsh
Over the land mines
Past the naysayers
Beyond any obstacle
Someday, somehow
You’ll rejoice, where the light resides
There is a time I cry
Tears pour out a lake
Carrying me afloat
Where grief is humming its tune
Oh the Lord knows I cry
But He sets the pastures
That bound this lake
Green, green pastures of hope
Oh, I cry in slumber
The people, unaware
To cry, is to be strong
To cry, is to visit the bounded lake
In my days to come,
May I pay heed to Thy word.
The devil will seek to harm,
“I am with you”, You have said.
Before, now and ever.
When in lowly manner,
May my thoughts be pleasing to Thee.
And may it be, that my demeanor,
Will be a light shone, for all to see.
As before, now and ever.
In times of trials and hardship,
May my faith in You be replenished.
That if temptation to veer off should creep,
Your word will have me admonished
Just as before, now and ever.
Amen.
I wanted to pray
But would God forgive me,
If I went down on my knees?
(James 5:16)
I wanted to pray
But my need was trivial
Would He care?
(1 John 5:14-15)
I wanted to pray
But I forgot to the other day
Would my inconsistency anger Him?
(Jeremiah 29:12)
I wanted to pray
But life was happening
Maybe He could wait.
(Colossians 4:2)
I wanted to pray
But sleep was calling
Would he remember me when I wake?
(Psalm 42:8)
I wanted to pray
But I didn’t have the words
What use was an empty heart and mind?
(Romans 8:26)
I wanted to pray
But the outcome was here
What more was needed?
(1 Thessalonians 5:16-18)
I wanted to pray
But I made all these excuses
Thinking it was too late.
(Psalm 118:5)
Skies laden with stars so bright
See rooftops adorned with colored lights,
Carols chase the still winds,
And the bells are sounding
But behind this frosted window
It still is Christmas Eve.
Beneath the tree, presents galore,
Some to be opened at Christmas dawn
See the households rejoice and feast,
The world awaits the Saviour’s birth
A time to reflect, spread love and joy
It still is the eve before Christmas Day.
People crowd the streets and they cheer,
All come together, far and near.
Give heartily, sing merrily,
Love wholly, eat fully
The King is born in some hours
But for now it is still Christmas Eve.
Anticipation has chased the hours away
And the little ones croon in beds as they lay
The King of kings, He lies swathed in a manger
Meek and humble is our born Saviour.
Christmas is here with her precious gift.
Pictures taken during my stay in Oslo
I saw God,
He approached me at the shoreline
Gently and calmly,
He tickled my toes
And He and I locked in an embrace,
As I awed in paradise.
I saw God,
At the mountain top, as he arched the sky
Colourful and a delightful sight,
He brought me joy
And he taught me gratitude
As my senses narrated the creation story.
I saw God,
As he fed the greens
Pitter patter, drop by drop,
Till each had their share,
Though thunder roared and lightning struck,
He reminded me to seek the light in the dark.
I saw God,
As He peered over my Grandma,
He held her hand and finally gave her rest
Although I cried as I would miss her dearly,
He made sure to give me comfort,
When she smiled her last and parted with Him
I saw God,
On the day of my matrimony.
The angels rejoiced, and He beamed all day
My soulmate, long promised, stared in my eyes
And I saw a love so pure, that signified my forever.
The right time had come in glory everlasting.
I’ve seen the Lord,
And I see Him each day.
When the sun rises, and reclines for the moon,
When the trees dance as hit by the breeze,
God is ever present, ever loving,
God is nature, God is love.
Night is nigh,
I must say a prayer
I look up to the Most High,
He never fails to deliver.
In good times and bad times,
I will trust and obey
You have shown to mankind,
To salvation, you are the only way!
I will boast of you to the crowds,
They will hear of you Lord.
Even those with hearts so proud,
Eventually your glory they will accord
The people must know,
Of this Awesome God
Each day, new mercies bestowed,
Oh His name, I will forever uphold.
Night is nigh,
I must say a prayer.
Your ways I admire,
And I wish to bask in Thy favour.
Joy overflowing,
A heart is calling,
Pleading a new start
The journey ever delightful
To welcome a lost one, now found
Praise at my feet,
I am welcomed volitionally
My Father and I ever so proud
That the Kingdom thrives
Hear the angels cheer so loud
Time is passing
The soul is lacking
Each day growing weary
And see how I have been shut out
Sorrow begrips me, my tears are endless
The slate full once more
My stay cut short, I’m let go
The journey dejects me
Lost is the same soul, savoring in sin,
My Father and I, see us weep
Time has elapsed,
The soul is calling again
And I go running without restrain
To wipe that slate clean
Undeterred by the recurrent sinner
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