Dawn sweep away the perils
That chided me in sleep
Praying and crying out, though nasal
My Saviour, He hears me weep
Turned on side, pillowing my fears
The stillness, so loud, envelops
Reminded of a hymn to repress the tears
Gathering courage, to never give up hope
The day is bursting through
And the remnants of night, they fade
Flee away you woe, perhaps one or two
For today we choose joy, and will not trade
Night of laments
So why do I see the stars?
For every mistake, a choice I made
Night so contoured
Why do I sense hope?
The haze, slowly fading into the horizon
Night, of…restoration
Certainly must be
Regrets are in the distant
Someday, worried one
You’ll find the light
Someday, wretched one
You’ll be on the other side
Through the swampy marsh
Over the land mines
Past the naysayers
Beyond any obstacle
Someday, somehow
You’ll rejoice, where the light resides
It’s as hard to explain
As it is to watch
Because today, Calm won’t even as much
Meet my eyes, or break into embrace
Two or three gather
There’s a crowd
Involuntarily losing control
I must prepare myself
A breath in, a breath out
What am I inviting in?
What am I letting out?
I’m held back suddenly
Silence, as I try to articulate
It’s like I have no voice
And something keeps pulling at my nape
Ten fingers, seemingly turned dozen
I tell you, Calm is out for me
She steals my voice
Latches onto my neck
And casts me into the springs of anxiety
One went canoeing
And the waters were gentle
Many a man from history joined
And the waters were calmer
One went canoeing
To make peace for herself
To settle unfinished business
Then the waters were calmest
The heart needs canoeing
For anchored tension inflicts pain
She needs to find and make peace
To calm the turbulence in her veins
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